I owe a lot of money in student loans relative to my income. No sweat. It’s not as big of a deal since I’m in Japan. I don’t really think about the debt, nor do I really consider it debt. I think of it as money that I was able to raise because I have such a smart brain. Yeah, ok well if I was smart enough to get that much money then why not figure out how to pay it off?
And get a real job, as they say. I’m working on that part. I hit home runs in my head every day. Literally, I see myself hitting home runs. I also see myself at the head of an electric car company, winning multiple oscars, rapping in front of huge crowds mesmerized by my beats. I’m not very good at ordinariness, which makes me quixotic, I know. Dreaming big causes tension in one’s psyche. On one hand, you know how amazing you are and what you’re capable of and on the other you have to wrestle with your current life circumstances.
Our culture has a way of shaming people to enforce social norms and keep the wheel moving. Most people stop dreaming at a young age. I’m not saying that I have the right answer because I haven’t figured it all out yet. I owe a lot to a special woman in my life. Without her I would likely be dead by now. Before you start judging me, I can hear it in my head, let me say that there is a very unique set of circumstances that led to my current situation that I cannot explain as being logical in a materialist paradigm. Spiritually, there were forces that brought us together that is likely something that we both agreed upon prior to coming to earth. It’s called a soul contract. I sometimes feel lonely and out of place in Japan. Some days I really feel the pain of social isolation and I have to recenter myself.
I’m still happy deep down. My light shines bright. I just have these surface level frustrations that I am dealing with. So god told me to drink whiskey, not too much, just to take the edge off.
And then I thought of all of the times that god was with me even while being really drunk. Like the time I decided that it would be a good idea to take a piss into the Seine off the ledge of a bridge near the Eiffel tower. Yeah that was smart, Mike.
Most advanced sources of wisdom tell us that god is all encompassing, he’s omnipresent. If God is everywhere, he has to be inside of my glass of whiskey. That explains my early twenties, I wasn’t drunk most weekends I was just with God.
I’m working on manifesting a miracle. It takes a change of conscious energy to generate the right coincidences and align the stars to your will. I’ve done it in the past and I’ll do it again. In the meantime I’m going to enjoy my whiskey.